hey folks =)
This is a thread about me and my recently increase of namechanging....a documentation, a blog, feel free to comment, to give ideas, bla bla bla
we started with
the Disappointed, disappointed about the strokes of fate
(in which I don't belive in), disappointed about the situation, disappointed about the ideals of love, equality, friendship, humanity, disappointed because of mankind.
...yeah, it's all about a girl. She played her evil games with me, dumbed me before it has started and sees herself as the victim. But I'm the disappointed...
For a while I defined life in general through a verse of Jack White III. "something's better than nothing" (
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QKntY8WkNYQ --> great song!), but with time my mood rised and I remembert another song of him:
Effect & Cause"Well, first came an action / And then a reaction / But you can't switch around / For your own satisfaction / Well, you put my house down, then got mad /At my reaction [...] You seem to forget / Just how this song started / I'm reactin' to you because you left me broken-hearted / See, you just can't take the effect / And make it the cause" (song's here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tzWckYfZhbA&feature=PlayList&p=85EA158EB8363CAA&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=13 ). life is full of disappointments, true, but in fact, life's just an aggregation of effects and causes.
economy sucks --> poverty increases
poverty increases --> so does criminality
more crimes --> more victims
think about it. I thought a lot, all is basing on casual chains, chains of effect and cause. you have friends --> fall in love with one --> neglect the others --> get dumbed --> need friends --> many are angry because "they told you from the beginning"
so it's where we again have "all about a girl" by Nirvana... (
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YEYGZyY-5Hg)
I do need an easy firend....I'm not sure if the line really means "some friend who isn't as complicating as you" but I like it this way.
So, now, I changed to
lei lei. I gotta explain this I guess.....I remembered: I actaually
have friends who support me and who really care about me. One of them, one of the best, maybe the best, lives a few hundred kilometers away, in beautiful Carinthia (
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carinthia_(state)). I have phoned her yet, I chat with her a lot, I know her...well...ever since...I really can't say since when... but I haven't ever seen her. This changed this weekend. It's amazing, I never assumed, it would be so naturally, but it kinda was as we would see each other twice a week
she cheered me up and expressed that she's backing me all the way (although some [former] friends of mine won't do). Se influenced me with some music I wouldn't havee heard before, with an eye for art, it was pretty good to have some avocation....
there's one thing Carinthia is famous for, it's it's special form of Shrovetide and there is the phrase "lei lei", which indicates "don't take things too serious, let's have fun" and it's all true. Essentialism makes life unconfortable. don't think too much about the base. "Take people as they are, there are no others".
Everything is deflating if you think it to the end. When you start thinking and if you go deep, all you can do is pray in despondency. But it ain't necassary all the time. And it's not adequate all the time. So I stopped.
lei leithat was the lttle story of pORG's names so far. The story will bne continued. Feel free to comment, to note something, to suggest sth, whatever.
have a nice time.
just try and stay positive...
